8th Monthsary

I love to EAT together with you.

You’re the type of girl who doesn’t know how to complain (most of the time, I think so) what kind of food we are dining. You eat all kinds of food as much as I eat but it doesn’t make you the best food eater, it is still me. Moreover, it has given me a sense of comfort whenever I am eating in front of you mainly because you accept me whoever I am in times of those moments. We never argue of what food should we eat and we always go for the usual one such as the most publically “Bobbie Bun”. It is the second most delicious burger in KK ever since and most importantly affordable or should I say the cheapest one. We are already used to those sales personnel every time they would ask us either spicy or original (of course original) who give a damn thing about buying something that leads you to buying an extra drinks that you shouldn’t in the first place. Next stop is the “Growball Combo Meal”, I love the way they mix up all bad and for kiddos foods together. They only make it special in terms of packaging and hell yeah, the ambiance of the place is quite amazing and composed of crowded different walks of people – we love it anyway. We love waterfront experience, yes we do because of its magnificent sunset, the sound of the ocean, and the fresh air but, however, last time but when Hari Raya strikes before, we haven’t had the chance to even touch one chair because it was fully loaded and until now we couldn’t set a time for it. L Anyway, we do still have the ever since favourite of all “Mcdonal Api Api”. We love the way they put an extra adjective on every promotion meal they are offering. Aside from its wifi experience and toy meal, it’s the best resto we can have even at midnight.

I love to PRAY for both of us.

It has come to a point in our lives when we need something greater than men to guide our path and do good things with righteousness. We accepted the changed and it seems we are doing well at it. In spite of our different religion, we still believe on the same thing. That issue never have been a factor for us to fight in any case. I salute you for that because we set aside discrimination and we live like a civilized people. I know (I suppose) God from above love us very much that he moulded me into this form for you to have a glimpse of attraction from my sense of humour *Thank You JC* for this wonderful physical appearance and sex appeal. Don’t worry He also created you in a perfect way possible for me to totally changed from being a CHIX machine! Everything has a purpose, AMEN.

I love you and I am being LOVED as well.

This is a wonderful date for us because we reach 8^th months and this is the longest relationship I ever have in my entire awesome life with a lady (don’t get me wrong, I am straight). 8^th symbolizes continuity and prosperity for Chinese, it also means something BIG for me, and for kids it is the time for them to explore sexuality.HAHA! So anyway, I hope you did enjoy when we went to Sapi Island and thanks for making me laugh when you screamed out to all fish in the Beach. The tourists as well would like to thank you for giving them an entertainment. Above all, you are superb my Puppet because you still hugged me throughout the scene, that makes you so sweet and caring..oohhh. Speaking of LOVE, you can’t sleep, you can’t eat, you can’t talk, you can’t smile, and you can’t run and etch. It’s all because of you 4G!

I LOVE YOU FOREVER! Inspired by the story of EAT, PRAY, LOVE! MWWWWUUUUUUAAAAHHHHHHHHH

Dancing is showing who you are..

Since mid 2009 dancing has become my life, there's a feeling you get when you're freestyling, performing a piece of choreography or just dancing around with your friends that's indescribable...I want to spend to the rest of my life with that feeling.

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How can a blind man dream

How can a blind man dream without seeing a thing?

How can he visualized and materialized things in his dream without ever knowing that those things exist?

Interesting?

Allow me to present to you a scenario that will give you a glimpse on its possibility, how a blind man can dream, dreams.

2000 years ago, would it be possible for you to see an executive car on the road? A Jet plane in the sky? A ringing cell phone on a table or perhaps a shopping mall in the Jungle?

Big NO.

But every technology, architectural designs, innovations and developments around us are materialized dream of a certain individual who lack visualization of a thing that has not yet exist but come to existence for he chose to live with an impossible dream. With the same possibilities a blind man dream, dreams.

Man was created in the image of God, man creativities was inherited from that image. What makes God different from us was that, He created something out from nothing, but man creates something out from the resources that God has already created.

When God creates, his creation were meant for good and end up good, it is related and connected to one another, His creation were designed with a purposed and has a pattern which known to us as life cycle. He created land before the trees for in the land trees gained its life support, then after the trees he created animals for in the trees where the animals’ gained life support, and then man. But when man, animal or a tree comes to an end it comes back to dust where life cycles begins.

When God creates, HE creates not same as the blind man for He fully understood how things begin and how it will end so He purposely designed His creation with a life cycles pattern that completely has an end but as it ends, it also start where it begins.

But when mankind fall into sin, the creativeness of man was distorted through its corruption and greed, when man created something it appears also good for a time, so he cut the trees, he flattened the mountains and make cities out of it, he made holes to find gold and exploit the possible resources he can get to express his creativity. He made cars, buildings, airplanes, cell phones, TV, computer which he comprehends necessary for civilizations.

Man understood how his creativity begins but never fully understood how his creation will end, so man created things outside from the pattern of life cycles that was designed by God and as a result to man’s error, the earth flooded and many died because of a landslide, and when man creation comes to an end it becomes useless and we called it garbage on earth, so man tried to recycled his own failures but still end up being a garbage on earth, then man realized something,......

“What have we done to our mother land?”

That is how it ends when blind people leads and blind people dream, dreams....

Copyrights by Mr. Wynn Gregorio (http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100000563437375)

AlmaCrest, not only a school - it's our HOME.

I Remembered

I still remember the first day I stepped foot here in this college. I was welcome beautifully by ACIC staff especially by sir Joharie. I even remembered the honest smiles, the firm shake hands, and the warmth wrap arms that you let us experiencebefore. I was 16 then by that time that I need to blend into a new lifestyle and environment where in fact this is also phsycologically transition stage of my childhood into adulthood. It was hard for me to be honest but AlmaCrest made it easier though. This College taught me alot of things that I won't ever let go in my mind. Through ups and downs, the college has been all the witnessed of my growth and fertility. This "Almacrest experience" has changed my life chronologically in an advantage level in every aspect of my life. I won't never ever regret the sufferrings, the homesick, the delay of allowance, the hard part time jobs, the outdoor research, the magnificent night life, the life during class, the reading moments in resource center, and many other more that made me so intouch with this lifestyle and I think it will be hard for me to transite and endure again the next level of challenges and hindrances I will face. Honestly for your information I was given a scholarship opportunities in any universities and any course in the Philippines but however, I still preffered to go here. Now I can say to all relatives and friends that were asking to me why you throw away all the opportunities here and waste it there in Malaysia? I would reply "I will never ever experience in 4 years degree course in the Philippines as what I felt it here in just 2 years with full meaning and colors". I know I can do it! I made it here, why can't I make it there. I'll take this experiences as a tool for me in the future and most especially as an insipiration for me as well. It is because of you Ms Vanessa that I never stop beleiving in my self that I can do it! You encourage me once, you support me twice, and because of that I felt praise that someone above me knows and sees my capabilities and talents. So for the last time, THANK YOU SO MUCH!

Now...

Where is the CEO? after his warmth welcome at first, good relation in the middle, gone at the end!

It made us very disapponting that only our batch, he didnt give any talk, any care, any goodbye.

I am asking you a little favor for me to atleast help in my situation in your own little way.

I will try to understand in whatever outcomes it may be and be ready. BUT atleast I am

the only one who tried to fight for my rights, for my own good. I dont intend to give burdens

and problems anymore but we will try, I know your on my side.

If I have given the chance to help this College, I am willing to someday... because I love this preimise,

this vicinity, and this home of mine!

Journal #4 2009

JOBS

Job can define in many ways. One of them is obligation mainly because, that’s the reason why most parents want their children to learn knowledge in school- so that some day they could land a good job to support their selves along. We are obliged to do something to earn money, trust, value, friends, daily routine, and to contribute for the society. You won’t be having a financial support unless you’re very lucky to be a multi millionaire child if you will just sit around the whole day. You won’t be having tasks that can contribute to your self assessment and identity and if that happened you’ll possibly be misguided by bad temptations or destructions. You won’t be having self placement in the society and the tendency of it, you surely feel useless. All of those things are important for the development of nation. In other means, if you’re going to be lazy and won’t fulfill your obligation, you’ll be unfortunately achieved with a bad ending. Another definition of job is happiness. As what the interviewer asked Michael Jordan when he was about to retire, “How was it to be working in NBA for 20 years”? Then he humbly answered, “It was not really a work for me, I just had fun playing here for 20 years”. With that phrase by Michael Jordan, it really reminds me of one simple significant meaning of what job really is. You don’t do something just to please somebody or to let others be fond of you; it is because you love what you’re doing. In reality speaking, we humans have only more or less 80 years living this world; half of it will surely be in working years before you retire. So don’t spend half of your life doing things you’re not happy with.

Back then when I was about to graduate my secondary level, my mother requested me, “Son, since you’re a good mathematician- I think you can be a great accountant”. Given the fact that, my preferred university in the Philippines was already certainly prepared; I still did not follow my mother’s wants because it is now my turn to decide where will I be ten years from now. It will be my life and I need my own decision so that I can pursue to my happiness. I never regretted I took this tourism course because since I was still young I really wanted to travel around the globe and experience different kinds of environment, culture, climate, people, and fun. So whatever job I may land out from this course, I knew from the bottom of my heart, “it will be fun”.

Now a day, the market place out there is very challenging and competitive so naturally most employer will choose the only best employee to be part of their group. So if you’re just starting to have some designated job experience and unfortunately you are just a typical normal guy- I can say you must really have that spirit and heart of determination and motivation to make it to the top. Basically, different people have different assigned individual skills and talents, we just need to be aware of it and use it. The saddest thing to be a Filipino is that our country is experiencing one of the lowest job rates in the word and one of the highest job rates in overseas workers. That simply implies my country doesn’t give enough job opportunities or sustainable/reasonable salaries. It also entails that Filipinos have lost love for their country and most of them decide to work abroad and showcase their talents there. What’s left in the Philippines if this dilemma will continue to happen? I just hope and pray that my fellow people will not totally entrust all works to the new elected government, we also need to give our support and our best masterpiece woks for our dear nation.

To sum up everything job is a specific piece of work required to be done as a duty or for a specific fee.

Journal #3 2009

HOLIDAYS

The first thing that comes to my mind when I here holiday is “Fun”. I still remember when I was granted free math training in Cebu, Philippines. I didn’t really take it as a weeklong seminar but instead I spent most of time touring the place. It was one of the great holidays I ever had. Given the fact that Cebu has many historic sites that made it varies in culture. Moreover, people were very hospitable and amazing. They were so friendly when in times you needed help. Funny though, their language was so difficult to understand but fortunately most of them are fluent in tagalong and English as well. Technically, those who had been participated in that Math Seminar was considered the most intelligent group of youngster in Mindanao region and I was flattered so to be among them. To tell you the truth, I left that title and because of my curiosity of fun and travel, I focused more of my time in recreational things than learning math theory. That results me and my group to be the lowest and weakest team. Nevertheless, we had fun and friendship after the seminar, and I think that matters most.

Since I am a Roman Catholic and the “Holy Week” is fast approaching let me tell you about my experienced about those days. When I was kid, “Holy Week” for me and my sisters was the most boring week ever. Aside from not having an allowance, there were no television shows throughout the week and all the stores and public chains were closed that led us to stay home every second of the week. Basically, we just had a couple of board and card games and eventually it turned out to be gambling. Then one day our mother noticed us playing with money, and she scolded us. From that day on, we had never been exposed to card and board games anymore. I have grown up from a religious family, and I think that’s the reason why when it is “Holy Week” we always go and climb the mountain cross in Zamboanga, Philippines to penitent. It is not as easy as you think, simply because we need to walk on sloppy mountain until we reached the top. Adding the spice of it, that mountain has fourteen stations and every station we need to stop and pray afterwards we light a candle until we reach the top to see the cross. I didn’t still mention the crowd when we were about to go down the mountain. So physically speaking, it was really a penitent moment. To sum up everything, I have learnt a lot of things in my childhood that makes me who I am now today.

The latest holiday in my life was this week. Malaysia celebrates Chinese New Year annually, and for this country it is very significant unlike in the Philippines. Our college imposed a one week holiday and that leave me and my co international students doing nothing most of the time. Some of them spent times in doing part time jobs, some are loitering around in computer shop to contact their families, and most of them (I am one of here) were just watching movies at home. It is not that too boring though, because just last 14^th of February we went to the “BED” and spent our Valentine’s Day and Chinese New Year at the same time there and we were partying together all night long.

For me Holiday can be spent a lot of ways, you just need to appreciate even a small thing that is happening to your life so that you can cherish every moment from it. In any circumstance, there will always be an end upon it, so does “Holiday”. After all the fun or boring days, there will always be an end of it and you will always be back to your normal life. One thing that I will never ever forget about “Holiday” is that after I spent it. It replenish myself to a new me, it is merely like an essential process so that I can discover myself more and more.

Journal #2 2009

EDUCATION

Life is a learning process. When it comes to academic for me, I find it no problem because I play for learning. I don’t hesitate to make mistakes and afterwards learn from it. I can really justify that experience is the best teacher. Since I am in the tourism industry, I had so many working experienced relating to my course. Oftentimes, I usually work in a restaurants and hotels. I have done plenty terrible mistakes such as accidentally pouring water to the customer, breaking glass, slide in the kitchen, and miscommunication with the supervisor, and worst forget to use the assign uniform. In fact, after all those mistakes I had done- I can say I am a better service provider now than before but I would still give myself a room for improvement.

I want to share this private story of mine to you Ms. Rita because you’re one of my favorite teachers ever; I am seriously sincere of that. This is the story of me and my mother and how she raised me up well from being a good teacher and a guide for me. My father died when I was still three years old, so my mother became our only source in every aspect of our life and we have been poor when it comes to financial department. In spite of being a single parent of a three children, she did not surrender in her job and at the same took care for us every moment. In the morning, she is a teacher and in the evening, she is a mother and a teacher; that’s how she overworked just for us. My aunt supposedly adopt me because she knew how difficult it is for my mother but my mother say a big NO and still continue to raise us up with pride and integrity. She has not loosened hope that one day; everything is going to be alright. Actually she is always telling me that there is only one thing that keeps her going that is me and my sisters. Surprisingly, she remarried again five years after the tragedy happened. I can describe my step father as the great savior for our family because aside from being a very patient parent, he is also kind and really cares for us. Together they taught and differentiate us what is bad and good. My mother rarely punished us physically, instead oftentimes she taught us why she was mad and taught us sorry means ‘never do it again’. We were well cared and loved. They always support us especially in academic, whenever I was participating in dance show, they were always there cheering for us. As time goes by, we are still working to improve more our lives but nevertheless, we have already accomplished something, which is to be happy together as a whole and firm family.

I have said education comes from “experience”, “parents”, and now it also comes from our teachers. I have learnt throughout this year that teachers don’t really teach everything we need to learn because some things can only be learnt by applying in the real world what you have learnt in the classroom. Reality check’ teachers can’t really convey everything they know so it is up to the learner to find and exert more efforts to go beyond what she/he is expected to make. However, education can be found everywhere; you just need to open your eyes and accept the knowledge that the environment can offer to us. In my opinion, the society should practice more in teaching young adults about open minded and awareness sensitivity.

They can steal your car, they can ruin your family, they can burn your house, but education is the only thing that can never take away from you. It is merely like your own soul that has the knowledge within you that you can use it as a tool for the challenging world out there. So to all my fellow “Almacresianz”, let’s study well and achieve our goals in life.

Journal #1 2009

CHANGE

Let me start talking with you about the latest significant changes happened last decade. First of all, people got used to have a social network to connect their friends and families. Most famous of those now a days is the phenomenal “Facebook” that boosts rapidly and makes all most all people in the Earth whether young or old, men or women has an individual account. It has as well positive and negative effects to the society. Different physiologist has different point of views, but for me I would still go along with the great essence of “Facebook” in this society mainly because it has been very helpful for me especially regarding about my constant connection in no time to my families back in my hometown. In other words, I don’t need to spend that much just to have a long distance conversation; but instead I simply just connect to a wireless connection using my personal laptop and technically I can travel across the globe by just sitting down.

I know most people if you would ask them what is “iphone”, “Blackberry”, and “Nokia Eseries”, they will probably answer you back; “you must be that wealthy enough to grab on those majestic and fascinating phones”. Technology is changing too fast and with these current technologies out in the market, in my opinion anything can happen in the future. I salute myself for being a human being which I knew the one who creates those cyber things is as the same creature as me. Since the revolution of Industrial market begun, you can noticed the factories, large beacon of machines, robots instead of human force, and worse nuclear powers can just be seen anywhere across the globe. This unfortunately caused an imaginable chaos to our dearest home, Earth. It is commonly called “Global Warming” which scientists explain the Earth is becoming warmer and warmer as years pass by because of the chemical called “Carbon Dioxide” created by humans more than they need it. In my thought this unexpected circumstances really happened because of people are getting greedy instead of getting helpful. They fight for power, pride, and integrity. Sad to say, most of us forgot to fight for freedom, peace, and love. However, from what I have read apparently on the newspapers main countries like USA, Germany, France, Great Britain, and Japan has been made an action such as using nature friendly tools, palnting more trees, manage the nuclear plans, using passive source of electricity, and many more just to prevent the total damage to the Earth.

This last topic about change I would eagerly want to share is how I have changed since I came here to study in Sabah. From the very first step I made when I stepped this land, I knew automatically that I need to adjust my lifestyle and start to live independently. I started to learn how to wash my own clothes, how to cook food for me, how to laundry and iron my clothes, how to handle may financial budget, how to make important decisions, and most of all how to act maturely before I face this cruel world. Life in KK will be one of my most unforgettable pages of my life. It hasn’t only taught me how to stand on my own feet; it also had been made me realized to foresee life greater than I thought it would be. I can say I am a better man now unlike the childish kid yesterday. Great things happen in a blink of an eye, so I promised to myself that I would never stop from growing and change in a good side. Being stuck in the world of unchanged and stable will not make you who you really are. It’s good to live in a world of impermanent and changeable things simply because it will let you experience what life is. So for those who are reading this- make a change and leave a mark that will be remembered for a lifetime.

My Journals last 2008 (what really happened to me)

Week No.1

It is very exciting for me to attend the first day of college, a more matured world, more different challenges and most of all a new environment awaits me. I felt very lucky on that day because I never thought I would take my college here in Almacrest International College, Sabah Malaysia. It was hard for me considering living away from my parents and live independently for the first time. I realized how blessed I am to have a supporting parents who are willing to be the wind beneath my wings. It was introducing time with my local and international classmates and I found out that some of them are more than twenty six of age, and also the others are second courser already like nursing, dentists and many more. I was amazed with my young age of sixteen; I have already the chanced to socialize with more matured person like them. All the lecturers are also having a high standard education because I knew all of them are degree holder. They were so kind to us and easy to approach. When it comes to my classmates they were good, even the locals are very friendly to me. They taught me a little of Malay language and I also taught them my language. On that very special day, I did tell to myself, I have already achieved one fourth of my dreams to become a reality. Why? Simply because my dream is to live independently – to wash my own clothes and dishes, iron my clothes, budget my money wisely, and most of all to socialize with different people. I got also the chance to have a part time work as a waiter in Sutera hotel. My seniors invited me because Sutera hotel had a big wedding celebration. I grabbed the opportunity for my own experience and also to earn extra money. We worked for more than seven hours, serving people with standard procedure even though I can't understand if they answered me back. I thought it would be all fun, I have just realized how hard to be a waiter but at least I gained more knowledge. With that experienced, I was able to meet in person the prime minister of Sabah and the head of Malaysia. After our work, one of my friend got sick maybe because of the stress work and also of the different environment that we are not used to. My friend have been absent for two days because of that. I also got slight fever and colds but I managed to become better. In our dormitory also known as my home also have rules and regulations that everyone should obey like throwing our trashes daily, cleaning the house, observe the curfew time and many more to be implement. Honestly I had a hard time to adjust because when I am in my hometown the only things I do is to eat, watch television, play computer and to sleep but here I am totally different and I think this is the best way to test myself how strong or weak I am. When night comes, I still remember my family and my loved ones. Quitting became also my option but until now I stand in my own. I am more focused with my studies so that in the future I will be somebody. With my first week here in Sabah symbolizes the start of a whole new beginning, a new threshold to overcome. I hope someday this country will reminds me once in my life I did it in my own way.

Week No. 2

What a week! I thought I can't stand the challenges of college life here in Sabah but with the help of my faith I got to used to it. I already knew how to budget my food, allowance and groceries. I can also speak a little of Malay language already. I can get up to my bed without somebody wakes me up. I have never been late so far in my class. I can manage my time. In short – I begin to enjoy my life here in Malaysia. Last Sunday my dorm mate Kris celebrated for a father's day party. We helped him to buy vegetables, meat, and goods at K.K. Plaza in the afternoon. As I walked at the plaza I can see many foreigners came from different places like America and Philippines. In fact one Filipina talks to us at the grocery store and assisted us to the vegetables corner. I came up to a point that we are not only Filipinos who came here to study but also some of my own race came here to work. After that we went home, and Kris already started to prepare the ingredients to cook Filipino dishes. Just a little information Kris is our chef in our dormitory. Because I don't know how to cook, I took my rest in my bedroom and after an hour I can already smell the Adobo (one of the famous Filipino food). I hurriedly jumped out to my bed and go to the kitchen and I saw different Filipino foods that I have missed a lot. When evening starts to begin, all international June 2008 intake came over to our dormitory with their food sharing also. Even some of the local students and staff of ACIC came over. We ate together and some of the old ones drank alcohol. We really brought the noise all over Grace Court because of the loud speaker of disco. Nevertheless we have fun on that father's day celebration. After the party, all you can see in the surroundings are trashes. Tuesday is also a special day for us because the batch two students coming from the Philippines will arrive. When we saw the big bus, we hurriedly ran towards it and helped to carry their luggage to their respective rooms. But what I really excite most was my box from my parents and friends. My friends send me a long letter while my parents gave me groceries from Philippines, a phone and also my allowance for July. I have also met again my uncle Niko. I am also adjusting my study habit in my dormitory because whenever I wanted to focus, the influenced of my other member is greater. I am still working for that. When Saturday came, I had a chance again to work in Sutera Harbour Hotel. It was a Chinese- Christians celebration entitled “D' next generation”. As usual it was very tiring but more experienced gained. In Saturday I and my friends went to Church at early 9:00 am to thank God for the blessings and seek words from him after that we went to 1borneo which is a new mall from the east of Kota Kinabalu. After a heavy scheduled week, it was nice to embrace my pillow and say “I have done this FAR”. To be more focus with the things you do, will really help you to do great. Some people quit in the struggles of life, and nothing happened to them except depression. Life is very short so learn to value every seconds of the day.

Week No. 3

I can described this week as my most favorite week, simply because the “Iron in my heart starts already burning”. Back in my high school and elementary days, I was very consistent in my academic field. I am once an honor student way back in my grade six years and also a salutatorian when I graduated high school. After those years I spend my summer vacation in my hometown with my family and love ones thinking I would be away from them for two years and a half. I often left at home and hoping when I come back here again, this wonderful place will be the same as it is. I have been so much relaxed on that summer time, forgetting to read, to be mentally healthy, and to gain more knowledge because of too much spending time in front of the computer. That's why until now the iron in my heart just recently begins to heat. I have a feeling of hungriness of knowledge. Despite of hardship being independent, I want to spend more time to gain experience and knowledge. Thanks a lot to my lecturers because they have done a great job for me. They evolved me into a different and more matured person. Now I understand more what leisure management or tourism field is really all about. In fact one of my lecturers told us, “The happiest people in the world are profession of tourism because they always mingle with happy person”. With that thought I promised to myself I will never go home without bringing with me my diploma. Situations about my love ones who where left are also crucial because my mother often texted me through cell phone to asked help about how to fix the computer, to put battery in the remote control, and many small things else that was used to be my responsibility before. My girlfriend really wanted me to be backing home and she always quarreled me in times when she missed me. All of this is part of the game I played. I know from the very start when I leave from home, this will normally happened. When it comes to my friends here at Malaysia both local and international, all of them are good friends of mine specially my roommate. After class we usually hang out in the mall observing beautiful girls. Suddenly I met a new friend who is beautiful and smart. When the first time we met, she treated me lunch and I felt very special and of course shy because boys normally treat girls. I just don't want to fall with her considering I left someone who is waiting for me. In weekend, I and my group mates went to Rungus Longhouse and in the tip of Borneo in Simpang Mengayau. It was really a great time and worthwhile experience. We explored new and different things like the cultural people and the traditional house. More or less we spent two to three hours in road. When we were about to go back home, I said to myself – I did it once more. Traveling for me is so much fun and exciting and I want to spend most of my time traveling around the world. On this foreign land, I hope this will be the start of my adventure to explore the wonders of the world. To go on travel is my dream and to meet different people all over the world to make friends is my goal.

Week No. 4

The more you get mistake, the more you learn. In sixteen years of age living here in this cruel world called Earth, I experienced a lot of challenges and struggles in life but after I passed those hardships I became a better person. Since we were kids, we struggle to walk, to wear our own clothes and many more but after getting used to it we learned. Getting to used to other things is just like waking up in the wrong house. To change your lifestyle, to make new friends, to eat different foods, and to live without the things that always been beside you are just cruel as you can imagine. The only thing we can do is to face the reality and work for it. People classify by their different choices. Decisions can change people but we have always the chance to choose what is right. This week for me was like a learning period. I discovered a lot of things and one of them is “You can not please everybody”. Too many people in this world forgot the most important word in life which we call it “RESPECT” I honestly forgot it sometimes because of too much of anger and revenge. I can not blame myself for doing that because I chose it. Decisions really change people and I hope all of us will choose the right one. I also saw different and unique things in this world and one of them goes like this: when you are rich you are highly respected but if you are less fortunate you are only treated like a slave. Some people in this world are also playing safe and most likely they are in either side. What a cruel world it is. If only we can treat each other equally, I assure only Love and Peace will be develop. For one month stayed here in Sabah, Faith really helped me. Without the guiding words of Jesus, I might not gone this far. Sometimes you need to experience everything so that you would learn. There is no easy way in living life so live it as it is- cry, laugh, be crazy, and don't miss the chances life is giving us because the most important things are not “things” at all. Most of the times they are “people” making your life worth living. I treasured more my friends now than before because i knew they are like Gold that is worth to be kept. I admit I have done so many mistakes in this week and one of the most crucial is not being honest with my girlfriend. Man is weaker than woman, we easily break, and worst of it we tend to forget our past entirely. Now it is time for me to choose and make decision but whatever it is I hope it would be the right one. Greet people with smile, respect others sincerely, and be faithful to yourself are the guiding words of my life and I would like to share this to every person especially for those who are about to surrender the cruelness of life. Every failure and sadness has reasons so if you doubt why it happens to you, stick to this: “we can never learn to be brave and patient if there is only joy in this world”. I just hope that every decisions I will make will be good for me and for the others and if in the event I made the wrong one, I would not blame myself for I know I learn from my mistakes.

Week No. 5

This week was the most unbelievable event happened to all of us international students. On the past few weeks. We only have experienced joy and adventure but who ever thought we would be experiencing exorcism attack by the bad spirit. Of course, all of us were shocked when one of our female batches was attacked last Tuesday evening. At first we thought it was only a respiratory problem until she went crazy and strong. She was brought to the hospital immediately and everyone thought everything going to be okay but it was only the start of our worst nightmare ever. When she came back home another three female students were attacked by the bad spirit. Teachers were there, neighbors also helped, male students carried the victim, and some of us prayed to the lord. All of us were there and where we are supposed to be witnessing the most horrifying happenings in our life. Victims were shouting, screaming, and the crying for help. I have only seen exorcism in television before and now it is happening in front of my very eyes. The feeling if pity really struck in my heart because even though I am not a close friend of them but still they treated me as their special friend. I prayed a lot hoping it would stop. On that moment confusion is our greatest enemy, we don't know what to do and what will going to happen next. The non victims included experienced sleepless nights and skipping our meals. After that night, the head in charge of us decided that we must evacuate the place and transfer to Likas. But some still stayed in Sembulan and the exciting part of it, I was in charged of them. The exorcism still happens in Likas and surprisingly some boys were also been attacked. The Christians held a prayer for help and guidance in one of sir Niko's friend house. We reflect to God and instead of asking why is these happening to us, we prefer to strengthen more our weak faith. Because of this tragic, our faith grew bigger and stronger. Maybe God let us experience these so that we will learn. To forgive your enemies is one of the hardest thing everyone can ever do. Even how hard your enemies push you down, never go for revenge because it only means you are weak like them, never go to their level. What is the use of fighting if there is peace? Also in these week I have the chanced to be more close with Virmary in fact I slept beside her to make sure she would feel safe. Every time I am with her, all I want to do is to take care of her and I don't know what makes me like this to her. Perhaps I am falling already to falling already to her. We really had the right love at the wrong time and it is also sad to belong to someone else when the right one comes along. After the tragic everyone are hoping that all things will be back to normal and face our unwashed mountain clothes, rubbish room, and worst our project and assignment like what I am doing now. Covering up in our daily lives is not that so hard but to forget the tragic, I know it would really lasts a lifetime. We have experienced a lot of emotions – happy, sad anger, panic, anxious, and many more but because of these, it made us stronger. We wouldn't be surprise that some will quit this battle and go back to Philippines, but those who still go on like me are great warriors. Problems do comes, all we need to do is to face it and work for it. There will always be a solution first before the answer. I think for me the best thing we can do now is to have a lot of leisure time to be mentally and physically healthy once more.

Week No. 6

After the tragic last week, we are still trying to move on and forget the past. I never thought after what happened last week it will lead me to something unexplainable feelings which I believe others call it as LOVE. Week six for me is all about love. Sometimes love is unfair the more you sacrifice, the more you hurt and when you feel you give your best, it all seems not enough until such time you had no choice but to give up. I say this so because when the first time I fell in loved seriously to a girl was back when I am in my secondary school. I was struck by the love at first sight to her. I was very ashamed to approach her and every time my friends teased me to her my face just turned to red. I can not understand exactly what kind of feeling it is but I believe I will be happy if I will commit to it. It was all turned to otherwise. When we are already at the peak of our relationship, she suddenly gave up and started to make annoying excuses to break me up. I have no choice because I don't force girls to love me. After our break up, I could hardly smile even once. I don't want to live, to go to school, and to eat. Until I realized perhaps I became like this because I don't want to move on. My friends really helped me to recover from the pain. I appreciated their care for me and I am very thankful because through ups and down they are still my best pal. Money can only buy companionship but not true friends like what I have. My family also gave me hundreds of advice. They said it is normal to felt that way but never stick to it because you will never grow. There I realize the best part of my life is when my family understands me as a friend and my friends support me as my family. In times I run out of reasons to live, God is also always there for me. He understands we are not strong all the time. He knows that sometimes all we can do is rest on his arms as he takes us through the journey of life. I can't really understand that it takes a thousand sweet efforts to build a great relationship yet one fatal error can destroy everything you have started. The only gift I can give to all the girls I loved before is the good memories we have shared. I know one day they will go and I can't make them stay. I can only let them know I really care for them even they are about to say to me goodbye. Life is a cycle. Learn from your mistakes and experience. Don't ever quit, if there is life so there is hope. Just keep on breathing...

1st Letter for Her Ever

Puppet Kring,

There will be times that one person can change everything about you. You don’t even know when will be that time or who will be that person. It just happen in a blink of an eye that you couldn’t even realize that you’re beginning to be another kind of human being that is molded into different kind of art, it is merely a masterpiece of your own self. How great will it be if everyone in this world does find their own painter and make them their own masterpiece. They don’t necessarily be your girlfriend or lover; they might come in a different form of beauty. All you need to do is to accept them in your world and try to share something and if ever there will be a sort of spark between your conversation and bonding, somehow you find the correct one.

Mid of May, me and my friends were expecting a new students from Philippines. Yes, there it was. She and her mother came that day, or shall I say that night with lots of loaded luggage. Of course, being a gentle man, I immediately handed over my help for them and took a walk until we had reached their allocated room. Honestly, she got my attention because of her shiny and gloomy hair that compliment with her soft white skin but unfortunately I haven’t given the authority to have a chance to talk to her mainly because her gorgeous mother was there as well. So with all the barriers that kept me from being apart with her was well done and lasted for a couple of weeks not until the time her mother was about to go home. Technically, it was really a sad night especially for her because with her young age, she will about to experience living a life without her wings beside her back since she grew up without a father. Basically, things must done in no time so that a person can appreciate and learn life in more perspective way. I know a mother always wants the best for her daughter because it represents her guidance, but sometimes choosing which path to give is beyond the ability of a mother and she must make a crucial decision. There was she, when me and my friends were giving a goodbye song to her mother, she had herself isolated and ran towards the comfort room and cried badly. I was definitely familiar with that feeling and damn, it is really like a sword that pierces in your heart thoroughly. I followed her and gave a comfort through my verbal capabilities and afterwards teased her. That was the time her mother baptized me as a ‘puppet’ because of my awkward movement for trying to tease her. Luckily, after a while she was able to calm herself and actually I can’t really blame her for acting such a kid because I knew every human being in this world that has attachment with someone and about to break will really experience a tremendous heart shut down. I was trying my best that time to cheer her up and let her feel that she was not alone. I think somehow, I did a great job to keep her away from lonesome besides I had really a full energy that night to do that so, because of the foods that were bought by her mother for her despedita party. Things went right as it supposed to be after that night.

Our story started after that night. I was curious what she is up to after her mother went home. So technically, I texted her and chitchat some things. As things went fast, I really haven’t noticed that I am starting to feel some kind of supernatural feelings towards her. I really don’t know what it is supposed to mean but one thing for sure that whenever I am with her, I don’t think my worries and problems. I always used to have laughed every time we are together. Yeah! It feels heaven again and she’s the angel even though she treats herself as a princess. From the bond we have shared most of our spare time recently, I am confident enough to describe her and it goes like this..

She has a mysterious attitude that makes her unique among others sometimes, though she is quite simple and quiet most of the time; it doesn’t stop her from being a fun to be with. She really hates people who simply underestimate things and especially those people who are untrustworthy and no assurance of a lifetime in touch. She appreciates persons with common material things and interest. I think I can’t go further anymore this time because we still need to spend some time together, but our affair is surely still ongoing and we absolutely share one believe and desire- the word is ‘forever’.

“Thank you for being my best of friends”

-Chester Alfaro

(Puppet’s 7th Successful Monthsary)

Puppet is my life. I want to give credit for that because everything I do, I always put in regards to her whether she would like it or not, whether it’s bad or wrong for her, or anything that is relevant about my life linked to her.

Both month of August and September have really taught us a great lesson in our relationship – that is “everything has a right time”. We have been facing problems about it and we don’t know how to overcome until we learnt to turn to our Faith that brought us again in a brighter and righteous side. It is really true that life is a learning process and we don’t need to stop from learning as long as we correct every mistake we had done. So, I am very thankful to have you as my future wife because we are together no matter what happen, in good times and bad times. I am just hoping like in those times that can happen in the future, we would still endure it together. Thank you again for the “McFlurry” that symbolizes another HOPE for us and a better way. We need to fight against temptation all the time so it means one cannot do it if the other one is not cooperating. I am praying that we can stand against all odds because I just simply love you forever.

This recent month as well, we have been fighting constantly from a small fault and misunderstanding. Actually, we had that moment that we need to shed tears just to stop all those non sense fight. However, I believe that in every fight we had, they became our signboard in the road we are going through because when we look back from those mistakes, we would know which the right way is. Technically, I am blessed we didn’t take those problems seriously for days (longest was entire night, Sorry for that.). Our hearts knew that we need to take the pieces back into shape once they are scattered because the aesthetic picture of us can’t stand to hang there showing to other people it’s broken. I would like to take this opportunity to say sorry and thank you once again for all the things we have been through. SORRY, because recently, I can’t be control, I am selfish, I am proud and ignorant, I am stubborn, I forgot to respect you, I am not worthy, I am not sweet, I am not caring enough, and all those lacking effort to make you feel like a princess. I somehow forgot that I need to take care of you because I took you in my life so it’s my responsibility and obligation aside from loving you. THANK YOU, because after all those imperfection of mine, look! I am still there in your heart all alone. You never think my imperfection and never take me to grant instead you love me more than anything else in the world. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH and I mean it wholeheartedly.

Lastly, now I know what is the meaning of these words, - “tears of joy”. I experienced it within 3 minutes and 5 seconds. I can’t stop my tears from falling down and at the same I can’t imagine how happy I was that moment. I used to create and make videos before but you think of me and caught me off guard. I never expect that thing coming so THANK YOU SO MUCH! Puppet FOREVER and EVER. CARING AND LOVING YOU MORE AND MORE EACH DAY!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Axp0HG0I6Ds

6th Consecutive Monthsary

There are so many things why I love my Puppet

1. She is taking me care very much than I thought.

2. So fun to be with.

3. She can surrender everything for me.

4. She can’t close her eyes without a glimpse of me.

5. She is fantastic in a way of simplicity.

6. She is a perfect woman to get married with.

7. She is very humble in her own way.

8. She has generosity in her heart.

9. She is shy in a good way.

10. Flexible woman.

11. You can’t hear anything bad if she loves you.

12. Her hair is like a luxurious silk.

13. She has a smooth crystal clear skin.

14. Her outlooks can simply convey how lucky I am to have her.

15. She has commendable straight forward brown eyes.

16. If you’re lucky to be her guy, it feels like winning the lottery.

17. She will love you until the end.

18. Buy one take one – her gorgeous open minded mother.

19. Loving her is like living in heaven on Earth.

20. She can be your religion.

21. She will do whatever you loved to.

22. You can have an imaginary child with her. (PIPI)

23. You can start building an imaginary dream business together with her. (Puppet Café)

24. You would never lie to this woman otherwise she will correct and love you more.

25. In whatever situation, in any circumstance, you can count her.

26. She could keep secrets.

27. She is your most memorable best friend.

28. Anyone can just adore her by the simple smile.

29. I can’t find any reason why I shouldn’t love her.

30. She has a great future that lies ahead.

31. Her family is all hardworking and reasonable.

32. Honest that compliments her eyes.

33. She got what it takes to be a princess.

34. She has a rewarding and honourable past.

35. She will dream often about you.

36. She will never slap you.

37. She knows how to control in any aspect.

38. She is sometimes like your mother.

39. She wants to be close with your family.

40. She is my one and only puppet and my fiancé.

My Dearest Miss Puppet,

There are just so many things why I love her. I can’t even remember all of those but one thing for sure; I know that I am completely unconditionally irrevocably in love with her. It is just fun though despite every time we were having a fight, at the end point, we would always stay in love again. Everything I am is because she moulds me into this kind. Everything she is, I have been all the witnessed how she turn out to be just like the perfectly lady she is right now. I may have nothing to prove you something right now aside from my love. I don’t still have the modern skyline condo in the city centre yet, I don’t still have the Puppet Café coffee shop in Palawan yet, I don’t still even have my PHD attainment in tourism yet, I don’t still have the perfect rest house beside the beach yet, I don’t still have the achievement of successfully had helped my family in giving a better life, I don’t still have a nice black car, I don’t still have a stable job, I don’t still have a perfect body with 6 packs abs, I don’t still have all the latest technology, I don’t still have the money to marry you, and many more. However, you will all be the witnesses of my step by step achievements. I hope you’re willing to stick up me with me for at least the last breath of mine. HAPPY 6^th Monthsary Puppet Koh!!.. I love you so much. Mwah. I’ll always be here for you.

Loving you,

Mr. Puppet

5th Satisfying Monthsary

Month of July... I would like to touch some background information about this terrific month. Last July 8, 2008, it was the birthday of our dear ate lheng, and also a tragic happened to all international students that an exorcism had happened to some students. It leads us for non-having an early class break. All of us were depressed and weak. Last 2nd week of July, 2009- the h1n1 attacked us suddenly that made most of our dear fellow Filipino students stumbled down for weeks with sickness. Some were stocked in other countries and can’t go home. So basically, when July comes, I am so nervous and anxious of what will happen next. However, by this time July 2010, we stand all together as one as we awaits the coming of a princess. 18th of July to be exact that everyone forgot of what had happened last two years ago of this very month because everybody is busy preparing for the coming of that day. It was a positive sign though. This is the month where everybody wasn’t thinking about bad terms mainly of one lady that gathered us all together as one.

Despite of all the burdens we are facing right now especially for those who are undergoing their industrial training, those who will move out in their home, and for those who are having personal problems. We forgot all that things and reminisce our time in that very little moment-we were happy and rejoice together. That day represents our achievements, that day symbolizes a young lady is born, and that day reminds us our sense of unity. So in behalf of all who attended your very special day puppet, I would like to say thank you from all our hearts. Moreover, that day bourns a gift of mine (necklace) that represents me even I will be far away, that there is hope and faith for us to be together someday forever in terms of physical affection. We may be far but our hearts and choice to stay in love will keep us together by emotionally and spiritually.

A gift of yours as well will ever remind me of time we will take part and I would be conscious every time that somebody is waiting for me out there. So thank you for deciding to give a precious thing like this, I will promise you that i will keep this the best way I can. With all everything, we have done, we just need to keep up all those things. I hope you will also finish our 1st book (scrapbook). Don’t worry many pages and chapters will still unfold as this will only be a new beginning in our beautiful and highly committed story. I won’t never ever let you go no matter what will happen, for you are my life and my hope in everything I will do for the rest of my life.

4th Wonderful Monthsary

I was really having a hard time to write these moments down on a piece of paper to record our times mainly because I can’t exactly explain to you into words what we are having right now that exceed from affection to love affair. However, I may picture out and define some of those small things that we have gone through this month and it was one of the best for us. After I came back from Brunei, we have all the time to be together, and sad to say that time only lasted for a short period that made us hard to adjust our lifestyle. It was great because it’s like a practical training how to be your husband in the future. How to treat you the way it should be and learning the most important lesson being in a relationship that no matter what happens, if you love somebody, don’t anymore stop believing that one day you’ll be eventually turn up together in a roof.

These past few days, you have experienced my addictive to coffee and I’m really thankful that you accept it and support me as well. My main point here is, whatever I choose to do, you were still there, like my decision to work every night. I know it’s hard for you but you still carry out your strength and let me fly. I love you Puppet. Now I am working out your 18^th birthday next month and doing all my best to make a success and will be remembered forever not only by you but all the love ones of yours that will attend on that day. I know basically, all your dreams and plans on your debut did not go all in the same way but at least your mother tried her best to give you a party. Mwuuaahh!!!

I might got a thousand hug before and had millions treasure but this one is surely and truly different because you my girl, help me shape and to transit of being a foolish being into a motivated individual. Without you, I might not be this person that I am today. You have done things beyond you are expected to do for me and in my part I was thankful to God that he gave me you despite of my wrong doings. I am really”from the bottom of my heart” grateful that you accept me in your life whole heartedly. I appreciate all the times you’ve chosen to be beside with me and go along whatever path may across our way than to go your usual path. I guess I made myself as a drug of yours these couple of months, and here we are our official 4^th monthsary has come. It is really a mix emotion that I am feeling right now. I am happy because we are getting stronger and stronger every month. It’s like nobody can stop us now from achieving our dreams and goals together. I am still hoping and believing that it will lasts for a lifetime. Unfortunately, as months passed by, every second counts now in our relationship. It is a deep blur still for me where the wind will really blow me off. I feel missing you already. I don’t actually feel worry or afraid of losing you when I go because I know and you know we have built enough foundation in our affair so that no matter what and how many winds smash us down, we would stand still like the empire state building. I believe we can!

So, the question now is, will I be seeing you this Christmas Eve, will we be together on the new year’s countdown. My answer is I will try my best to be with you at all times because it is necessary to me. As a matter of fact, you’re my lifestyle and your run my life now. Last thing is, promise me that we will work out the “iPuppet Cafe” because apparently this is my biggest dream and target in life rather than being a diver, or pilot. - P.S. you look very well in a Baju Kurung.JEJEMON. I love you so much and once again happily and gladly monthsary for us both that we had celebrated in a simple date lunch in growball lounge and became one of the important memories. Sana Puppet mastart na natin ung scrapbook and sana makabili pa tau ng couple shirt. Sori pla sa nangyari sa watch ah..huhu. Godspeed...

3rd Striving Monthsary

Puppet, alam mo ba na kng saan malayo na ang mahal mo, minsan dun m pa lng marealize ung gaano xa mahalaga sau.hahay..parang trial ung long distance relationship natin nung pmunta ka ng singapore. E2 ,sna wag ka magalit kc nung araw na umalis ka,naginom ako agad after ng work sa sobrang lungkot ko.naginuman kame ulit pgka bukas kc sad pa rn ako.at habang ng iinuman kame,pinapaslide show ko ung mga pix natin sa laptop ko,lam mo ung feeling na ganun kahit alam ko short time ka lng mawawala,pero napak bg deal na sa akin.on the other side,masaya rn ako for u kc nakapag travel ka sa singapore kasama ng mga mayayaman.hehe..alam ko naman dn ng enjoy ka super pero kagaya ng cnasabi mo sa akin tuwing mgtex ka,mas masaya sana pag mgkasama tau.huhu.hayaan mo balang araw,mgagawa dn natin un.tiyaga lng at tiwala,mwah.napapansin mo ba ung hnd na tau gaano ng pipix everyday,cguru dahil sa e71 natin.hehe.hayaan mo nxt semester,bgyan natin ulit ng pansin ang pichur pichur.para naman maganda ang kalabasan ng scrapbook natin..dba??bsta nx semester,start na natin gawin kapos dn kc sa budget puppet mo now kc kailangan ko pa ng money for brunei and ipon for you bday gift.wah. Sory puppet kng now mahirap lng ako,hnd ko pa nabibigay agad sau mga hinihilingin mo 2lad ng stickers natin,couple e71 cover,and couple sleepers pero dnt wory,nakalista na yan lahat in the futur.lapit na tlga debu ng prinsesa ko kaya suportive me sau now sa pagdiet mo hnd lng para sa bday mo at para na rn sa maintenance.hehe. Kng hopefully pumayat ka na although ok naman sa akin ung current looks mo(love na love ko nga eh) please imaintain mo na dn for long terms.hehe.pag balik ko ng brunei,promis ko sayo smahan kita lagi sa pagwalking mo at uubusin ko lahat ng pagkain na hnd mo kayang kainin.hehe. Bsta naiimagin ko na as early as now na maging perfect and simple ung bday party mo, the bigest event of the year, kng sa batch pa namin un,un na ang last party na mgkakasam taung lahat,kaya ckreto lng,lahat ng international,inaabangan na bday mo,c al lng sa bday ni niki.whaha. These past few days,napapansin ko na may improvement na tau kc lessen na ang away natin,konti na lng mga tampuhan which is good naman kc we spent most of the time happy and bond to make worthwhile memories,iloveit.hehe.kahit ung simpleng mcdo times together,growball tickets collection,basement lunch moments, tambay sa bahay time, sleepover, cooking ceremonies,one moment pancake, waterfront confrontation, library net mode, happy island arguements, pasar malam escapades, roti telur times, api api walking home together, holding hands all the time,at madami pang iba na hnd makakapalit ng kahit anung halaga sa buhay ko kc mga bagay na un ay mga kayamanan ko na naspent sau,seriously kahit often binobola kita, joke joke lagi sau, but inside my heart,lam ko naman na akam mo the true story behind all those words.ur the best puppet.Hnd diver or diver ang biggest dream ko kng hnd ang maptayo natin ang ipuppet cafe balang araw together with our children.iloveyou so much and happy 3rd monthary.

Sana naging happy ka na nagustuhan ka ng mama ko.bihira lng unn xa mgkwento with tears sa isang tao na she barely knows.through that act,alam ko na comfortbale xa sau na ishare ang buhay namin.sabi ko naman sau pagdating sa family ko,ur very welcome kc alam nla na alam natin ung priorities natin and we both know how to handle it.inspiration ko kau puppet.ung mga sisters ko,never yan cla gumawa ng mga ganun bagay ng mgsend ng letter and pictures (chamille sa drawing) with matching gift sa isang tao na hnd pa nla personally nakita.just imagine that for one thought. It simply implies na like and love ka nla by heart not only by sight....